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Name: devin
Gender: Male
Interests: well i could bore you with my music tastes, or my talents, but really, all that matters is the person inside of this charade of a body. id say i am a person who tries to be the best he can be. i am a fan of breaking the mold and doing what few dare to do. socially, mentally, and physically. i try to live with passion, love, will, desire, and sincerity. my problem is that i think too much and have high mental expectations for myself and others, my sincerity and concern sometimes get the best of me....im still not sure what to do about that. how does one stop thinking too much?
Expertise: if anything i play the drums fairly well, i have been playing for like 4 years now, and i can keep up with most any drummer. i like to make friends. its actually kind of hard, but really, all it takes is a warm smile and a hello. (i try, anyways....)
Occupation: Government
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  delmargonzales
Member Since:
7/30/2003
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| wow....so another year is upon me...i havent written on here in a while...mainly cause no one cares anymopre. lol myspace is now the blog du-jour. hmm well in keeping with the original intent of this site...i just want to ask you all a question. does anyone know what it feels like to want to just disappear? to basically exist in a coma in an attempt to keep your sanity and hope? am i making any sense to anyone. everything feels too surreal to be a)tangible b)well...real....i cant believe that this is all happening. i wish that this was all just a sick nightmare... a bad joke. must i suffer this way? the silence seems to reverberate as a resounding yes. with a crushed spirit and tears in my eyes, i look down and continue on this path...not looking up for fear of losing hope. the mountains look so close until you start up towards them. goodbye my love, ill see you in a year and a half's time. | | |
| happy nine months...ill be seeing you...someday.... | | |
| ...god what i would give for the days when we would just walk out into the orchards behind my house and skip on the railroad tracks and name trees....to kiss her in complete solitude and love without having to worry...without having to say i love you-that already being understood. we held hands as we walked on the rails...each one of us holding the other in balance; in place. never fearing the loss of balance. never losing trust. i had never known a kiss to speak quite as loudly or true. never betraying myself to anything less than my own love. never betraying her... our world spun only for us....i dont know if ill ever be able to go back there without her. its almost impossible to walk on a single track alone... | | |
| "it is better to die on your feet , than to live live on your knees"
-Emilio Zapata | | |
| hmmm wow, its been a while, hasnt it? i dunno when the last time i posted on here was...though i have had this site since i was a sophomore...fall is coming...i cant go to uop...i am really bitter and sad about that. oh well, i guess therell be other trips...i hope this all works out...im probably not going to tell you what im talking about...i just feel like saying that. so anyways, i dont know who my friends are anymore, so if you are my friend...give me a hello, its been a while, but its nice to see anyone who still cares online...hehehe. bye
*devo* | | |
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